|| moody for no apparent reason..
why, hello there.
in the midst of the crazy normalcy that is my life, i have taken time to write a little in you, my lj.
i have not forgotten about you, i've just been busy.
no, really. i have.
and yes, i'm sorry.
it's been a long time. things have changed. i'll tell you about a few things happening right now.
after working at my first job for a month, i quit. and i got a new employer. a better employer. i started last monday. i sincerely hope things go well this time because... i can't imagine working anywhere else. so things better work out. and so far, they are.
i liked a boy. there's a part of me that still likes him, but there's also a part that is over him. after recently hearing that he now might be interested in me, i am finding myself suddenly thrown into a confusing mess. i'm thinking way too much about him and the culminating situation between us. i'm just thinking way too much. and it needs to stop. i just don't know how.
also, i might like another guy. a very good, close friend. and it's not good because i don't want to start liking my friend.
there are just so many problems with boys in my life right now. i sometimes wish there were no boys. maybe i would've been better off in an all-girls school... ehh.
it's the start of my last semester and i'm not so sure that it'll start off the way i want it to. everything is so much more confusing than first semester.
college has become a reality to me quite recently. and, quite frankly, it's scaring the shit out of me.
i am getting way too out of shape. i need to work out more. as soon as it gets to be a higher temperature outside, i am going to run two or three miles. then, i will promptly fall down in a heap of sweaty mess from fatigue.
i'm actually looking forward to doing that. really.
it's valentine's day (aka single's awareness day) today. that makes me think of a certain boy that i shouldn't be thinking about. and that boy, along with another guy friend, gave me flowers today. and that gets me thinking about things again...
meanwhile, i have a new obsession: the canadian show, life with derek. and the canadian actor who plays derek, michael seater. why must i be absolutely besotted with michael seater? damn you, you hot, sexy beast.
i'm starting to become a fan of canadian shows. i really want to see that show, degrassi: the next generation. and a plethora of episodes of life with derek. and naturally, sadie too.
its quite possible that the reason behind me watching these shows is because i could be reverting back to my childhood/preteen years... making up for things and experiences that i wish i had done and experienced by watching actors and actresses act them out on tv.
or, it could be something else. i don't know. whatever. you can call me childish and immature, that's okey.
today was a rather bleak day. i woke up really moody and by the end of the day, despite the valentines gifts of flowers and cards and sweets, i was feeling rather annoyed.
it could be b/c of my failing the math test. or b/c i was post-PMSing, which is highly likely. or... it could be me thinking about certain things again.
anyway, i just needed to sort of... empty my head a little. this seemed like a good idea.
i now must go bake valentine's day brownies so that i can give them to people tomorrow. i know, i know. i'm procrastinating with this, too. but then again... i procrastinate w/ almost everything, important or trivial. so why should this be different?
anywho... happy valentine's day.
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